8 Miles

Ugh, this run SUCKED tonight! I ate at Chick Fil A, had a wrap and half an order of fries along with WAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY too much coffee and loaded with emotions. I ran down limmer loop, felt sick to my stomach the first 2 miles then thought I was being stalked and got creeped out, turning around at the 3 mile mark to head back into my neighborhood....felt like vomitting at the 5 mile mark and just kept asking myself, "WHY THE HELL ARE YOU DOING THIS???? WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO PROVE WITH THIS RUNNING STUFF?????"

Oh boy. Very discouraging run. Not sure if running is my "thing" or not. I feel really good after my long runs. I hate that it takes me at least 2.5 miles to get into my groove and start to enjoy it. Some days I feel strong. Some days I feel defeated before I even begin. Why do I ALWAYS feel defeated? Not good enough? Hmmmmmmmmmmmm....is running helping me or harming me. So many thoughts, my head is swimming.

Needless to say, feeling very emotional.
Feel fat.
Feel out of shape.
Feel grose.
Feel like a "Fake" runner.
Feel insecure.

Also have my period...yeah, this may explain alot.

Ugh.