I woke up this morning and thought I was going to just QUIT! Why am I running a freaking marathon anyway?????? What was my motivation in this to begin with? Yeah, it wasn't from a pure, good heart. But that motivation has changed a bit. I needed to go on this run, not do the 16 like I was supposed to since it would affect my family time on our Sunday together, but at least get out there and do something and process my thoughts while pounding the pavement! :o)
I came to the conclusion that I "do" like running. The strict and rigid training schedule though is a different story. I am a MOM and WIFE first, runner last. When it affects my family, I go into "Ditch it" mode. BUT, I just can't do it with the running. I need to finish what I set out to do, to prove it to MYSELF that I'm not a quitter, I'm a finisher. So with that said, no I may not be able to do the plan EXACTLY the way I'm supposed to and I'm fine with that. I've had to lower the expectations for race day to "finishing" and NOT finishing in 4:30 or under 5. So here's to lowering expectations. :o)
Feeling some freedom in that.
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